Here I stand alone, utterly confused, trying to figure out ways to come out of this mess and to mend my broken heart. Is there a way out of this terrible condition? Tears rolled down my cheeks and I tried very hard to smile. But it just wouldn’t come out. Just then I heard my conscience say “Be strong girl, you need to face this world alone. No other go. After all it was you who made this decision. Now just face it boldly…” My tears stopped for a second, but then again I was really shattered. It wasn’t so easy after all. Yet another relationship had come to an end and this time it was a broken marriage.
After two years of dating and four years of marriage I and Manav were never meant for each other. We understood it was just stupidity on our parts to have thought that we had made a good couple. We did make the loveliest pair, in terms of physical attributes, but we never had any emotional bonding. Manav never made an attempt to value my feelings. What we both felt about love, was just infatuation. Infact there was nothing called love between us. We had just misinterpreted the word love that’s all.
May be it was good riddance for bad rubbish. In the pretext of holding Manav close to me, I was going through a suffocating relationship with him. “No, Manav was never meant to be a part of my life” I made up my mind. I decided to be strong and take up the challenges of life all alone. Days just passed by. Manav and I got legally separated. Manav became my past. I was determined not to get into yet another relationship, after all my last one had given me enough pains for a life time. “Never” I mumbled “Never, will I get into another relationship again.”
A year went by without many happenings in my life. I had become a complete workaholic because work was the only thing that kept me free from my tensions. I was putting extra hours at work and was even working on weekends. My life was literally dull with nothing except work, work and work.
One day my colleague introduced me to her long time friend Dheer, who was on the look out for a co-ordinator for his event management firm. I was actually doing the same kind of job and we started our conversation purely related to work. He asked me whether I would like to work for him. I asked him regarding the remuneration, but what he quoted was really low according to me.
I being too frank told him directly that I cannot waste my time for such a small package. But there was something about this person,that made me rethink my words and I said “ But Dheer,I’m just willing to help you out in any other ways I can. Afterall we all need to help each other right.” For the first time, since we started conversing, I saw Dheer give a wide grin. “ Ofcourse! Dear.” We then changed our numbers and decided to be in touch whenever required
I completely forgot about him within a couple of days. He was just another acquaintance. Atleast that’s what I considered. My aversion towards guys was still strong and I believed each guy out there where on the look out for the slightest opportunity to take advantage of any single woman. I felt if I had given Dheer a chance, even he would have done the same. I just decided to be alert.
A couple of days later Dheer called up, he asked me whether I can arrange for some models for an event. I got the details regarding the event and told him that I would be getting back to him in a couple of days. Once the models were arranged I informed him. From then on we started our regular interaction.
He called me one night and started chatting about his work and work pressure. It slowly led to him discussing his personal problems with me. I have been a good listener and solution finder for many people’s problems. So I thought even he wanted to share his worries and unburden his mind. I just listened and gave him an assurance that things will fall into place.
I felt that I should be telling him my problems too. That’s when I told him how difficult it was to lead a single life. I don’t know why I blurted out my troubles to him. But I did. He then told me “I’ll be there with you always. Don’t worry about anything.” Those words changed my life I must say. Not entirely though. He was still a stranger to me and I was not ready to trust him completely. I needed time to understand and accept him.
As days passed by our conversations became more frequent and longer. In a couple of month’s time we realized how much we needed each other. Dheer had become an integral part of my life. Day and night I started waiting for his calls. His voice made me feel relaxed, his talks made me feel calm and composed. Though it was just two months since we got to know each other, we felt we had known each other for ages.
From the day I got to know him, I was a totally different person. I became more lively and cheerful, from my usual sober self. His words made me feel I was the most beautiful women and the time spend with him made me feel I was the luckiest woman in the world. Everytime I was with him I had only one regret “Why din’t I meet him before I met Manav?”
But things cannot be changed and it couldn’t have been better. It must be pure co-incidence that we met. I thanked god, that now I had someone to share my happiness and worries. Even I had become part of his life.
Now its going to be a year since I met Dheer. His presence in my llife is the most perfect thing that has happened so far. We have decided to be there for each other till our last breath. We never made a commitment, yet our feelings towards each other were something beyond words could express. We are not even sure whether we could be together, though we so want to. Circumstances may change, may be we can still be together sometime, may be not. Whatever happens, happens for the good and Dheer was the only one whom I have loved unconditionally and he would be close to my heart forever and ever…
